I was not put upon this earth to devour my fellow man. It is not in my nature to bend these men to my will.
I am not here to throw them to the ground. These men were not placed here for me to pay for my sins.
We cannot be among others in this state. We do not do these things for our own enjoyment.
All that I can see, in nature, in the trees, I am welcomed into the fold that is the cold ground and the sopping moss.
One only has to look into their favorite mirror to see what is familiar, what is known and what defines oneself.
What are our choices when our mirror reflects an altered vision of ourselves? When we build ourselves, we use our body, our mind, our chemistry, and our biology.
Who do we become when we’ve had our chemistry, our biology, or our specter altered?
What is our recourse when our bodies betray us?
I did invite death in for tea, she refused me. She surveyed my garden but would not enter my parlour.
Death is not a sadist, she is an empath and we love her in her shrouds of deep longing.
We do not deserve her love, we will pine and yearn, but we are not for her.
She will live in my garden, courting mother nature.
These yearnings for solitude will empower the soul. These longings will drive you far.
What your soul has seen, what it is seeing at this moment, your moment, would only serve to drive men mad.
I am a man, I need to be a man. Do we continue to connect the then with the now? When we lose touch with nature what is it we are striving for, what is pushing us forward?
I see us, in nature, and I see us in nature. We reflect our nature back at ourselves, and we enjoy it to be there, to comfort us.
We cannot walk among the trees, breathe of them, see them, and not be part of them. We have lost when they are no longer our friends.
These men, and I am a man, these men, who will not commune with nature, have lost.
I do not wish for the light, I wish for darkness. I am allowed darkness, I am allowed to sleep, allowed to wake, allowed to live for an eternity.
I am no longer my worst enemy, as it is, that is who I am now. We are not looking for that light.
I will leave myself here, where I am, where others would like to lead. We have lost our reference point, I would prefer not one man follows where I may be set to lead.
These things may last, and they will last for many.
I would not know how to die. I know I have a place, in the forest, a place I can see from my chair.
They are not dead out there, they are not waiting for me.
I continue and I will continue on.